It is so hard that I have all this problem building up and there's no one I can talk to. No one at all. I've been bothered but I don't want to do anything. I'm so messed up now. When was the last time I feel totally in a mess with so much problem building up? It's nothing new, but the fact is there is no one to share with, no one to confide in, no want to console in. No one. I just don't know what to do anymore.. I'm breaking down again and again and all I can do is blog it? Drown myself with games and laughter. Because there's nothing much I can do is there? It's not helping that Nisa don't wana tok bout it and make things better. It's not helping that he got to be an obsesive prick and werk there. It's not helping that I miss LL so much. It's not helping that LL is sad and bothered. It's not helping that Din has a prob too. FUCK LA.. Seriously, fucked up. I'm starting to question and doubt.

I miss LL much. Miss her voice, her laughter, her sight. Miss the way she kill me with my lame jokes. Miss how she jump for joy when she did a new trick. Miss the way she hug me. Miss her smell. Miss her eyes. Miss her wide smile when I suprise her with something. I just miss her so much. I just realise there is no more spontant meet up with her....That's stupid right? hai.....Mayb we can still do it...I dotno...