It feels like shes fading...Feels like shes moving away...feels like im losing her... am i? i feel like theres nothing to look forward too... i feel emotionless now...i feel like crying but i cant...i feel angry yet i cant express it... what happen? why has it become so unfair? it was sooo perfect...i was sooo determined...wat happen to it all? wat happen to my faith? wat happen to my hope? wat happen to it all? wat happen to us? was i blinded again? no, not this one, dat for sure....i wasnt blinded,i didnt follow my emotions...my mind control it all...i didnt folliw my heart...im blinded now...my emotions comes in quicker...have i been holding it in all this while...my patient...its running thin it seems...i hate tripping...i hate getting angry, i hate my rage...i know it runs in my blood...i use this rage to overcome my fear of pain...pain..my rage can never save me from this pain dat comes from the heart...im so acustomed to it that when i use it to heal the pain in my heart,it rage inside my heart begging to burst out....im afraid...im so afraid..i one to be embrace by the dark for in darkness i feel no regret...but wat i want most is....her smile,her sincirity in her hug...her care,her concern,i want her to apreciate me once more...i miss her,no, i miss how she was to me... before this....is this so much to ask for? im left with 36 days left....36 days eh.....36 days left...i dotno wat to do animore, like a miracle she was,i hope she will still be my miracle... am i still the light at the end of the tunnel? do i still make her high in her journey of life?

faith, hope and strength, where have you gone too? please come back. ll, will u return me wat u have given me or will you take it all away?

sue me