I am no fool. I'm not that stupid. I know, I know something is wrong. I just don't know what is. Don't tell me you can't reply because you were friends. We know where you went so just be straight with me. One of the reason I like you is because you are straight forward and your that cool. I felt I was left hanging. Am I a bother to you? Am I nothing but a burden to you? Can someone just tell me what to do? No matter what I do, everything seems wrong. Everything I do it seems I'm being astray. What is going on....Where is the road? Why does everything seems dark? Why am I so lost and there is no one to guide me? Am I suppose to dissapear? Again? My legs are tired I don't want to run. I keep chasing but I can't reach. My mind is tired I can't think anymore. My heart is not even ready, my heart is already tired in the 1st place.


It's been raining this past few days and I dont complain. I like the rain, its cold, it numbs my feelings. It drench me with water, no one will know why exactly my cheek is wet.

I am this pathetic. Confiding in nothing but this imaginary book. This stupid website that no ones read. Begging for a miracle. All my life, I have never seen a miracle happened to me. My wish never came true. My dreams is....It's just a dream. I use to love sleeping, lucid dreams. Dreams that can never happen in reality. Dreams that can never happen and I realize, its just a dream and waking up, looking at my life, it's not even close to my dream. What have I done in my life so terrible that I keep enduring pain when it comes to love? Do I really deserve this? Is love suppose to be pain? What have I done?




The worst part, I'm enduring this pain and she don't even know...............