How long was it since I last updated this? It doesn't really matter. This is the place after all I let it out. What is "it"? Nothing, everything.

I've been down lately, half a month eh. It's only half a month. I don't know why, what is this feeling? Why am I chasing? Chase? Persue? She won't run, she won't follow, she won't find. I'm confuse, really confuse. Emotions cloud's judgement but what is this emotion that cloud my judgement? I never felt so sure but why am I so lost? My vision is clear yet I can't see. What am I suppose to do? I'm being stagnant now. Waiting here for an answer. An answer that will never come. Walk away, walk forward. I can sense people's heart, I know if someone is kind and or sincere. I know she is. Paranoah, doubt and jealousy is whats dragging me. Dragging me down dragging me away. I try to hide my emotions but I'm human too. I have emotions and feelings and at times I can't even control. Hold on to faith dear boy.

Sue me.