You are damn clueless of who I am. You are clueless of what I am capable off. You have no idea what your missing out with. You see, everyone I meet and talk too is an oportunity. Oportunity for me to extract ideas, to see a deeper height, to feel and to learn. The path I take will have no destination only endless journey. Your pushing away. I know. I feel. What are you afraid off? Please don't end this chapter as you being another passerby. Another idea. Another impact. Are you not curious on how deep this hole is. Depth, void, nothingless. Yes, basicly, its nothing. Thoughts, idealogy, theory is indeed deep. Store in the void. It is nothing, yet everything. YOU are nothing, but everything. Everything is a delusion, an analogy of dreams, Thoughts before me.

To another book, life is as simple as if you fuck with me, i fuck with you. Is simple as I treat you how you treat me. Simple as you can lie, but a liar will always find out the lie. Simple as if you give me a fucked up face, I give you a fuck up attitude. sue me.

I forgot how beautiful she is. I forget how her mind tick. I miss talking to her bout random stuff. Honestly speaking, I'm bloody down now a days. It's really annoying. Sometimes I wish it was refering to me. I need to face reality. It's not.


If you can read someone, it is easy to find his/her weakness.


At times I feel I knew but at the same time, I fear not. Maybe I don't want to do anything about it. Maybe I find that your flaws, your weakness, your strength, that makes you, you. You who makes me confuse. You who make me feel. Never have I seen someone's weakness beautifull. I'm still afraid of sleeping. I'm afraid to dream.


You're damn clueless. I wish it was for me. Wishes are just wishes. Sue me.

It happens, just like a new born baby, that means everytime. I am the one that ALLOW people to step on my back. I am the one that ALLOW people to use me. If you fuck with me, then I'll fuck with you. If you fuck with me and still need my help, I will still assist.


Respect is earn never given. You have earn mine and that's all that matter to me. You show me many things and I shall show you things that you never know existed. If I got something, you rather me tell you or me to show you. It runs in the same concept, seeing is believing but never understanding. Understand that I'am no different from the rest, I have hate, I have anger, I have pain, I have suffering, I struggled and still is, but also understand, I am different from the others. I struggle for others, I hate haters, anger makes me hunger, I pain for you, I suffer for you, I struggle for you. I'm loyal to friends and family. I do things with a reason, even if I suffer in the end. Do understand that the rabbit dig a deep whole in my mind. you never know how deep it is until you explore.


Life is as simple as the difference between a pencil and pen, our paranoah, our fear and our phobia makes it difficult.


It still scares me to think. Sue me.

No songs, No talking, its just me. No one listen, no one hear, so i do the same.

Why this song? because seriously, it scares me.

The answer is yes. Aku kecik hati. I'm pissed and jealous like fuck but yeah. I don't feel happy one bit for you. Yes I am selfish. I have another personality who hate. I'm hating now. What would I do if I fall down, I would stand up, I will always stand up. What will I do if I feel hate. I look at the sky because the sky is the thing that is above us, above you and me. I would smile yet cry at the same time.

Stand up BOY. WHAT YOU GONA DO BOY. If you feel like shit, and u felt like falling down...then fucking hold on... If you feel like the world is against you then fucking push the world. If you feel fucking obligated to carry on the fucking oblige. Just stop fucking complaining and do what you got to do. I feel she is better then you..then be fucking better. My world is in my hand and no other. My feelings is in my heart and no other. No fucking thing is gona make me change my mind. No fucking entity gona change my heart. I had a goal and I am going to achieve it. So fucking stop complaining and do sumting! fucking retard boy!

k dats random..cheers yaw! sue me!

PARANOAH. I hate that feeling. I hate the feeling of paranoah. I hate it when I can't control my emotions. I can't think straight. I hate thinking with my heart. Is it truly beyond my control? Can I not hold it in. It's fun not to be able to read but sometimes its annoying. Somethings are so easy to read, but knowing that person is cunning, you will wonder if that is some kind of plan or I was guided to think it in a another manner that is totally different. Annoying thoughts eh. Exciting yet annoying.

I feel sad, happy, joyfull and troubled heart all together. My mind race through many things that may or may not happen. My heart keep pumping a heavy burden again n again. I don't want to be a book that you will keep and read only when you need to, but I want to be that irritating light that illuminate through your dark times. I don't want to be the music that you listen to when you want to, but I want to be the song that you keep humming inside ur mind. I don't want to be the tattoo that can be erase by a lazer, but I want to be the scar the remains on you forever. I don't want to be the handle bar that you can hold on when you fall, but I want to be the hand that grab you everytime you fall or need a pull. I'm confuse and afraid but I'm summoning all my courage to do this. I felt as if a heavy boulder is pushing me away but I have the strength to push it away together with taps and pets from my friends and family.

I was once in the dark. I was once stuck to the ground. I saw hate pain and suffering. But you shine through the dark and show me my path. You gave me a bump to make me able to move. You make me see joy, happiness, beauty and love. I want to be that light for you. I want to be that force that push you to the dreams you always wanted. I want to be the voice that whisper joy, happiness, beauty and love to you. I will show you the feeling that you were seeking.

HUH WHAT? SUE ME!

HUNGER. I have a hunger that never satisfy. I want more. I need more. A curse that was given to me. It drives insane but I want more. I like it. My body deserve to be push. My mind deserve to be squeze. My soul wants to rejoice. The world is so beautiful now. The skies is always smilling. Knowledge is beautiful.