Tuesday, June 22, 2010
{12:30 PM}
Life is an illusion. Its a delusion. Your mind was manipulated the moment you set eyes on it. Your soul is the very reason why you weep. Your heart is the very reason you fail. Your mind is the very reason you deny. Denial is the art of illusion. Those who deny faith denies life. Those who have false hope deny love. You who do not know the meaning of love will end up lossing terribly. Pathetic attempt. A soul of another is no greater then another. A failure is still a failure no matter how your mind put it as you win. That's why the term "denial" and "optimistic" came about.
Why do people bother with this blog I wonder. It got nothing to do with my life or anyone's. Random thoughts being said to random occasion. A glorious moment for me. Though it sound bleak and sad and in pain. Rejoice for I am not one bit. I felt glorified. Emotions coming in and out my mind open up to everything. When my heart and my mind become one. "Don't think with your heart but with your mind. You can't love with your heart". A wise mom told me. How can one stop the heart from thinking. The answer is open up. Open up your heart but let your mind soar free. Open the door to life and enter with your mind. Let your mind soar to the wind then feel everything that comes in.
Bitches won't understand. What? Sue me.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
{12:14 PM}
All messed and fucked up. I just need something to release this anger. What the fuck I do? I'm not a fucking teen anymore yet I feel as if the world is against me? What up with that? Things that I don't do will still hit me? TO HELL WITH KARMA. Karma dont exist. It's just a reason. An excuse. I swear I won't be bias.
What's wrong? Did I do something to offend or make you upset? What's wrong? I feel that your upset with me. That you're kind of dissapointed? Why? Yet I feel it's my fault. Am I like my bands original title? ahah.....bummer...
SUE ME
Friday, June 18, 2010
{2:53 PM}
Monday, June 14, 2010
{9:09 AM}
Dreams, waking up from a good dream and knowing it will never come true. My dreams never did once came true. The smiles, the laughters the joy. To think that it's only a fraction of my imagination. All that was my deliusion.
Aku takut, sungguh aku takut. Setiap langkah aku ambil, hati aku kecot. Aku nk sembunyi balik. Tapi aku sudah sangkut dengn matahari, dngn madu, dengan langit. Gua ini bising, terlalu bising. Nyayian malaikat yang tk akan hilang.
Let the world hear my screams. Let the world feel my anger. Let the world feel my emotions flowing like the endless river flowing to the sea. Let the world know that the world does not revolve around me, and I dont revolve around the world.
Let me face this obstacle and the rest are just whispers that is left to dust.
SUE ME
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
{1:44 PM}
Its nice to see someone smile, laugh and be excited. Happiness is nice. It heals the world. Laughter and happiness heal the world. I can rant all I want but no one knows except mayb you who is reading this.
Notice the song name is called the secret. Not only is it a nice song but also, I have a secret but I really wish to tell everyone about it. However I do not understand my secret at all. Is it really my secret? I'm confuse and lost by this. A few times I lost my faith. Because I felt inferior. I felt I don't matter. I felt that there's nothing in me. What happen to my ego? What happen to my confidents? INSECURITY? Sometimes when you want something, you got to release the handle bar and grab it if not it will fall and be lost forever. It's either you manage to control it or fall. The fall will hurt but it is only temporary and it will also leave a scar or glory which is permenant.
My mum told me I had a very good judge character towards someone. If I trust someone, she won't deny it, have her faith on me and try to support me. I failed her once though. You see, she see's my good friends and She is happy with the friends I have. She even told me if you feel something is wrong, take a step back and ask your friends for their opinion as they know me. They know how I tick.
If you feel victimize, then shut up and live with it.
SUE ME.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
..........{3:15 PM}
It gives me joy to see you smile :)
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
....{11:12 AM}
Life is a miracle. Yet death scares the hell out of us. Most of us fear death as we know where we are going after death. The handfull of us do not fear because of that. They fear for losing their loves one. Not able to see them. Not able to tell how their day is or how the loves one dat was. Missing the sharing of knowledge. We take million of steps in our life but only our loves want will be intrested in every single step we took. Live life with no regrets
Sue me