I've been doing a lot of thinking. Thinking of this situation of dilemma I'm in. Honestly what others think about it doesn't matter one bit, as long as my heart stay true. What I'm worried about is what my close friend might think about me. Even in Batam I was thinking. Din reminded me of the fisherman story. As long as I do it with my heart, out of sincerity, it doesn't matter, it doesn't matter as long as in your heart, you know its the right think to do. That also reminded me of the time I once said, "I will stop at nothing to change this world for the better. No more hate, no more pain. I shall start with the people I can get close enough." I can't help but try to fix anyone who is broken. In the end, I will be the one that will be encumbered by the very burden I tried to fix. I don't mind carrying everyone's burden as long as they don't need to carry it. Din once told me, "have you tried to be a man? Don't be a prophet." Am I really trying to be one? There will always be choices for me tho choose, choices for us to choose. Truth will be known by few, and misinterpreted by many. That is life, a life I choose. Ironically, many will say "I know" when they don't get the big picture. One little kindness will impact his/her life to do kind deed and that kind deed will impact another person's life for the better, there will always be this exceptional idiot who will ruin it by taking advantage of the good deed and ruin the chain for a better world. That is why, the most important think is,"fisherman story", the heart must be pure and sincere. Even when someone took advantage of you, it does not matter as you do it out of good will and never expect anything good in return. In fact, I expect shit to come my way. That being said, I guess I shall do what I can to help.

"Everyone have their problem, everyone have the same problem but different." Wise words from a very wise friend. Cheers mate, I'm sure you're going to pull it through like you always do. I'm sure of it and pray for it.

Those who does not understand what I have just said and in fact waste 10 minutes of you miserable live, so be it...sue me