Well, songs, why is it this type of songs? Let me tell you a little story. Well..I was working, no thumb drive, no cd, so I just took my father's karaoke cd bag, and yea..listen to them..ahaha..well... i got to admit i past my time very quick. It's not that bad eh...Sounds J-pop, j-rock? both are still asians?ahaha..o yea...some songs i dedicate to some people..wahahaha...go figures!

Aku adalah kamu, kita adalah satu

Saw a retarded child laugh, it annoys me. After which, the sight of fist bash on this poor kid's face. A sight that did not fail to amuse me nor did it fail to give me a smile. The child then drop on the floor, shouting to this child together with numerous number of kick and punch that soon stopped like a ocean's endless wave to the sands. Wished it didn't stop. Why did it stop, carry on. Let's see this pathetic entity know what suffering is. The earlier he find out, the earlier he grow up. Soon I know why it stopped. The child was pathetic. The child just sobbed begging to end. A pathetic sight that doesn't even deserve a fist to be stained by it. Don't even deserve my glare to it. Don't even deserve to be heard. I soon realized, my life is not that pathetic after all. Some people deserve to suffer. Some people is asking to suffer. Some, just want to suffer.

Was bored, so decided to go cycling at ECP.... must say it was quite nice...Beautiful wave clashes against the beach, sound of the wind breeze brushing across your face, random people talking random things from random distance, sound of retarded children laughing and playing around

Why am I lost..Why is there no light
Why can't I find the words to say
I can't find the meaning to show
This is the time I feel weak
My mind have not awaken
I'm just waiting till it can soar once more

Hmm..Drifting away, your trying to move and drift away...I can tell....

Sue me

mind...games..playing games with the mind...after a long slumber of the mind....I lost myself....Controlling from the heart...expression control by the heart...the heart can't think...the heart cant think logically... it can't think rationally... emotion's engulfing my tots...my slumber has come with a great consequence

An endless clash of the wave...sounds so beauty...sight so significant... a view that calm oneself.... as the wave battle an endless clash of the sand...Endless impact....Wave in it's chaotic state...never to be calmed...No matter who you are...no matter where you come from, though you will say what a pity... you will always be eased or enjoy another person's suffering

A beautiful lyric from a beautiful song. Meaning so meaningless yet many lesson to be learn:


I was born and raised by the sea, shy yet proud,
Learned to stay away from the crowd
In my home, my lighthouse...
101 steps, round and dound
New Years Eve, one night in the town
Can change one life into eternity...

All I could see, her eyes,
We got caught in the moment, all of the night
Taken beyond all lines,
In silence leaving 'em all behind

She had found the sails, for the following night
The town, for her, was getting way too small
She promised to be mine
Forever, ... for that one night...

Moments, passion, small defeats
Concealed emotions, found in me
"You gave life to a brand new me..."

Crossing the wintry fields,
The first hour of morning light
Warmed by the flame inside,
The lasting memory of the ending night

I never had a chance to stop what hit me...
What broke my bones and mauled me...
After hours of deep, unwilling sleep... in a cold shelter
Fell back in the dark, and the hours of the day passed...

A nightmare awakes me, blinking light!
There's no guide, blind ships in the night
Oh blood red moon, eat away the night

Darkness covers my lonely soul,
No one to feed the dying light...

Good morn', oh dreadful day,
I prayed the moon had lit the sea instead of me...
For the sails of night,
"Please tell me everything's alright..."

My voice in the room broke the silence,
Everybody killed me with their eyes...
What I was to hear made the people cry,
Impossible for me to keep the tears inside

"All on board the White Pearl have died,
Coastal reef have tolled their lives
And you are the light of the night..."

One thing, I remember, before I fell on the ground...
Although I never saw the face,
A name was inked in his arm...

Love can be like poetry of demons, or maybe
God loves complex irony?
The family name stated I had seen before...
Written on her front door...

"Silence in the courthouse!"
A presence in the room, we both could feel
The father of her unborn child and me

All on board the White Pearl have died,
Coastal reef have tolled their lives
While I was the guide light...
Back in my tower, run, run, run
Light is out, I hope to see
Black oceans beneath rise and swallow me

One step will take me back inside, another sees my end
No one can love a man who guarded the light,
(Guarded the light, one faithful night)
Flaming eyes I must confront before I am stated free

Defining innocence is hell, after all that has past...
Building new walls inside my eternal night...
Although they took my heart and dried me up
Sometimes I still bleed...

Show me the way (show me the way)
The light will show me a way on the grisly reefs
Too many dead ends I see
No soul can save me
The respect I lost, the measure of a man...

1000 steps down, round and round
One night at the town and I'm hell bound
Black oceans beneath come and swallow me
All on the board White Pearl had died,
Coastal reef come claim my life
Black oceans beneath come and swallow me

My little tower, seal my fate
Help me pay back, end their hate
Black oceans beneath come and swallow me
One direction, down, down, down
Pitch black night for my old town
Black oceans beneath shall now swallow me



Had a good long thought's and talk with my best friend today...Maybe I should turn back to myself once again. Lets be me. May YOU help me along the way, I hope. Let this self pity dry, let this self hate be destroyed, let this lonesome stranger be helped, let the people know there are such people. Lets be the person who finish last, as nice guy finish last :)

Tomorrow is the big day, but mayb i dont want to sleep....mayb i dont want to past the night quick...mayb im afraid im going to miss this...I am indeed going to miss him man....So sad..so caught up with my own tings...i neglect my family..i neglect my fav bro....its so sad that we bro get along real well towards the end of this...decided to buy PS 3 with our money together...buying games...nt cause we love it..cause each other love it...watching movie going out together.... talking about our dreams and racing who will reach 1st.... i still remb when we keep it real...he was the drummer..i was the bassist...and friends to make up the band...my 1st perfomance was with him... It was great...real great...I look up to him...he influence me i must say... for those who know me...im not easy to influence...I am being selfish i guess...Dont get me wrong...Im really happy bout him...indeed! his happy..that's all that matters...that's how it have always been! through thick and thin, family will always be there... Let ur new journey begins bro... I will always support u till the end...i love you despite anything....this is FAMILY

NIKAH.....abg ku da nikah.... maut peh...ahaha

Let me start out with a bit of history, a not very so much too long time ago, yesterday, I was humming a song, wolf and raven by Sonata Arctica. I suddenly have this craving to hear that song. I must say, it was superb. An old song that still leave me amazed. Then a pinch of Hades, a half table spoon of lai lai hei, and a bunch of verikansan. There is other ingredients that was added but ofcourse, it's a secret recipe, no not the restaurant. SUPERB. There goes a night of songs of ancient times.

Hän katsoi maan reunalta tähteä putoavaa
Nyt kauniit kasvot neitosen peittää karu maa
Jokaisen täytyy katsoa silmiin totuuden
Sillä aika ompi voittoisa, mut' tämä maa on ikuinen

P.S My brother can officially get laid toNITE

Well, let me begin to tell you about a little history, not too long ago, as it has just happened yesterday. My best bud and I went SHOPPING! Wahaha... Even a guy nd to pamper himself with a little shopping you know...Don't ask how much I had spend cause even I don't want to know...ahaha...when was the last time we had so much fun? We can always release some stress by a little shop-ppiing! k dat sounds gay..ahahah...most importantly...I got full set...ok go!

Though it is outdated and it's oready 16/12/09....but let me get way back to 5/12/09....my best buddies gave me present's....worthless to many, priceless to me.....firstly..... a bag of toblerone chocolate from Nisah, hand written happy bday.....sweet sweet chocolate...a mataphor of the sweet2 memories we all had and will soon have....A squashtap from din, hand written happy bday....a squashtap to gather back everything that has broken into pieces...mend it and tap it back alltogether....a padlock with a combination code from Qader....A lock to my heart that he knows the code...and when I am ready he will unlock it...Lastly, 1 packet consisting 20 ciggys of winston reds by Yadi...hand written happy bday....to symbolise even in bad times....we will enjoy the small tings in life.....cool fwens eh...that's why.....they are nothing.....everything

Dreams, dreams, dreams. A dream that I wish not wake. A dream that I enjoyed every second every minute. I had that dream again. It's the sweetest dream. It's the greatest dream I ever had. Whenever I woke up, shiver chill up my spine. A slight pinch of fear rush into my veins. I love this dream but do not wish to dream about it. Dreams never come true doesn't it. It's scary how I could dream about it. A beautiful dream, waking up thinking it's a nightmare.

Since i have something in mind now...let me let it out before i forgot and before i go out...yes it rhymes...i'm a hip hop gangsta actualy

There's is sumting burning once more in me...burn and burn...now i know wat's the source of this burning feeling that i have lost..I understand y it exist....It's a feeling u wont cherish...it's a feeling u hate...It's a feeling I enjoy...A feeling the acompany me for some time...The worst part of this feeling is when u have it...that person doesn't know..that person doesn't know i exist in that's person' world...I won't tell cause wishes to be in peace..wishes no fite..wishes no arguement..wishes no guilt from that person

So wat the hell is this feeling? No..it's not love..I do not understand what love really is...then what is it? go figures..wat u gona do? sue me?

An expression I wish to express, but I can't find the word's in my vocab to explain this expression, and no action that I can do show what this expression so I will just keep this in me till I find the right moment and words to say

19 - 20 dec, my bro is getting married...wow...it's getting closer....i know im going to miss him man...hmm his moving to jurong..dats like at the end of singapore..ahah..sux..
Hope those who is free...feel free to come to this very harmonious and rejoiceful moment whereby my brother is getting married!

19/12/2009 - Nikah
20/12/2009 - Kahwin
MATIN & NADIAH

I will try my best in updating a happy post in this one...though my tone may be dull..that is normal because i am tone deaf.....well....today jammed..though it wasn't what i expected but it was ok la kan...had fun...been awhile since i jam for 2 hours...can say i was pretty tired after it.....but it was fun nevertheless..ahah...blisters on my fingers...a sign of not playing the bass for quite some time..ahah...it was awesome..hmm...I cant seem to find any happy words in my dictionary of words...due to my limit of english vocab..ahah... mayb i should put a :) in my post to make it happiar?ahaha..k I am actually bored and have nothing better to do.... due to the combution of the sun rays igniting the ground's core to it's crust..thus causing a great explosion...thereafter cause smoke and that is why there is global warming hence the great warrior from the easten did a dance of the rain therfore there was rain once more.....yea.....wat u gona do? sue me?

Don’t forget the fisherman....

There was a boy, with questions in his heart
Endless questions that has no end
A knowledge is what he seek
From this world that is full of grieve

There was a fisherman whose generation is now forgotten
While many fish with nets
He fish with 1 old rod
An old timer he was even back then

As the boy repeat the unanswered question
His heart crave for something he never knew
This annoyance and hatred in his heart
He condemned the world for the grieve they have cause

One wish he posses
For humanity to end
Earth is sinned
By our on doing

Life has a funny way to reveal itself
Through the web that entangle us all
Comes the same old timer that is outdated
He came to the boy asking for help
To enquire a simple technology that he is not aware
This technology unknown to him call internet

As the fisherman laugh at this invention
As how he fish without net
With 1 he caught 5
With 3, another fool got none
Just like a question’s been lingering in this boy’s heart
With a smile the fisherman said “the heart must be pure”

As this stranger left
Was how sudden he came
Unknown to the stranger
He has saved the boy

The question his heart no longer linger
A question of simple answer
Why should the rest suffer?
For the glory of one
Why should one suffer?
For the glory of none
Why should he suffer?
For anyone

He has not turn into petty fools
Self-centered being he has avoided
5 word sentence
is all he need
An old man theory
That save the boy
1 ambition he has
Sincerity is what he seeks

That is a story of a fisher man
Even through generation gap
Fate manage them to intertwine
Funny how 5 random words
Means the world to some
As the boy grew
He had not forgotten
How a fisher man
Managed to save him

4th of december...2nd off...no plans...everyone have their own plans...asking 1 by 1 for a lepak session...1 by 1...last min change of plan...decided to just chill with my best buddies...in the end..1 by 1...cant..those who can..is late...going toa payoh helping mum...in the wee hours....why did'nt i see it coming?

hang out at a friends home..playing game..playing guitar...best friend came..instead of discussing our song..played tech deck...really pissed...2nd off going down the drain..anoyance of every little crap that happend that day...bored...boredom get the best of me

2350 hours....need to go to the toilet..you just wore ur sock..yet u need to go to the toilet..instead staring at the window...I just need to smoke for awhile..quickly take ur piss then we go pollute our lungs....

0001 hrs....5th dec...things went real queit...going downstairs yet wearing shoe...it's just down stairs..dont waste any time...this mind is bothered..it;s tired....

0015 hrs....a known figure was seen...another friend...hand started to shiver...."ape korg uat kat sini?" huh.....what the.... 1 by 1..they came up..with a cake...hand shiver harder...can't control my own muscle...this tortured day had gone to a hell of a suprise...a nice happy suprise...priceless

This was the best suprise I ever had...The best part was...i didn't even expect it to be..honestly...so many clues ramp into my face...yet i didnt even get a hint...those who saw my reaction and my face...can only truly tell that i didnt expect it to be this way.. beautiful beautiful friends...friends from way back...The most suprising thing was that...someone who declared herself "outsider" was even there..hand shiver more upon seeing her...wow..touching..

Sat down...ate the delicious wonderfully beautiful cake... they gave me cute little presents...meaningless to many... the world to me....the saboh king came...my attention was drawn to him..my eyes was on him for any funny reaction...while talking still facing him...a choclaty cake was smash onto my face...by the person who i THOUGHT was the quite one... Soon after...the duo came...and american gangster wanabe and a mexican gangster wanabe... my ITE friends...WOW

Honestly..It was awesome..how everything went into play...right under my nose..without me even realising it happening to me... KUDOS! a hell of suprise...I had fun..it was awesome..playing games..laughing like old times...playing new games...awesome...To the people who was there to celebrate my little bdae..I would like to thank you all for wasting ur time on me...
Qader, Nisah, Adib, Yadi, Hisham, Amy, Fuad, Shaz, Naz and ofcourse my 1 and only best friend..Din...I appreciate all of you for your time to make this pathetic boy into a man...ahaha..k crap..really..appreciate it alot

I guess my 21st bday wasn't dull 1 bit...this is a part of history that will be craved inside my heart for eternity..I am blessed by friends like this

Other then that...something happened at work..i was alone..alot of time to think...WTF...why now? I shall not exagarate more.

Changes...Changes in life... 1989....superb songs, superb people, not yet influenced by media, no propaganda. Songs are real. People are real. No clashes in culture. Equality to all.

1999... Songs are still real..people start to discriminate..influence slightly by media...propaganda brought in

2009... songs....songs dissing other songs...sex...drug...killing...is songs now.. Trying to break an imaginary system... that was never there in the 1st place... culture is cool without knowing what the culture really is... Dissing other culture without realising, that is the culture that influence their culture... People become more black hearted... people starting to discriminate and policy of hypocrisy put it....media is the alpha male...wat media say...is wat we do... Raping is normal, molesting yg kids is normal... WTF is wrong with this world

Our world is dying and the people who are to blame is us

Just a random tings that came to my mind when i woke up dis morning...wat? watcha gona do? sue me?

0350 hours on 02/12/09.... eyes tired...yet not sleeping...updating this blog...just ripped songs in the compt...wat songs? Shattered Skies of course. I miss those times..putting me back to memory lane.. I remb someone once told me....he rembered being 21...it was the best time of his life...im getting to it...if this keeps up...it's going to be a dry 21..ahah

Listening to ametuar level songs which is kinda interesting cause I can relate...duh~ its my band's song..ahahah... totaly waste of time blogging...so watcha gona do? sue me?