I use to remember the time where moshing was real, body surfing n stuff. U.S really kill the world, it kill many things in life, hardcore dance and shit. I grabbed someone leg and throw him on the floor before for just doing a stupid flying kick in the crowd. I kick someone on the chest before for just running around punching through air and crowds. I will not fail to repeat my actions once more if someone hardcore dance towards me. Its great to know I'm not the only one who share this hate towards this. Where is the real moshing. I wouldn't know. Its been a while since I go to any performance, wonder if they are still doing this shit.

Lying on the bed awakened by morning breeze and sounds
Awakening your body from a hard night of sleep
Few hours wasted on your slumber
Eyes still very heavy

I won't lose you anymore, I learn my lesson, you will always be here with me. Your every movement will be noticed by me. Im the shadow that lurks your every movement. I'm the entity that live in your dreams. Im the soul that will embrace you inside out. I'm the person who will be there for you.

Sound's emo eh..but cant be blame..I LOVE MY RING! ahah...it's just a ring to you but it's been with me for 4 years now. I am attached to it as it is attached to me. Wat u gona do? sue me?

It's been awhile since i felt it rest upon my finger.
The comfort when it squeeze my left index.
A symbol that was lost from me.
I rejoice upon holding it in my hands once more.

A lost 3 layered silver ring that was bought at e-bay was found by my niece..ahah..coolness...

My eyes is playing tricks with me again, slightly opened door moved slowly closed, and slightly open, shadowy figure seen, light flickering, no wind, stuffy....what have I done to my health? Slight feeling of heavy chest, heart beating fast endlessly, eyes tired, hallucinating the slightest movement, mind going in endless circles.

If you (Im refering to no one cause no one is reading) notice, I never talk about my life here...do i? aniwaes, fact number 1, no man and woman, perhaps very few, will waste their time to go to a guys blog, while many strangers of random man and/or woman will go to a lady's blog. Fact number 2, who cares about my life? I rather just say random stuff, that is my life. Fact number 3, I am still finding myself and have no time to think and blog of what just happen a few hours ago of my life. No one going to read it animore, but what am I going to do? Sue you?

You may say
What you want to say
Nothing is important
Words will be words
Trust me when I say
As long as my heart is true
All their words are immune
No one will know
This secret i hold
I bring it down to the grave
This silence I keep
I will never share
What I have gone through

WTF was that about? Does it make sense? What you gona do? sue me?

Truth is disturbing, truth is sad.
Truth is anoying, truth is dead.

As long with walk this earth, there will never be true peace.

Evening and it's still bright. I miss how the sky look down on me. I forget how beautiful the sky is, darkness, bright light and a ray of hope. I miss the sounds of multiple random people walking pass, as they talk, gossip and a slight sound of music that could be heard on their mp3. The sound of total silence after a loud noise has been heard, the ringing silence that go buzzing on your ear drum. I miss the chilling fear that embrace me in the middle of the night as I sense something from behind silently stares and move slowly but swiftly through my blind spot. I miss the sense of tingling sensation from fear as your leg shivers to the core of your spine, as you embrace nature's route to your heart, it feel's as if you are born to do it. I miss how small things in life, fascinates me, like how tears drip for hours, yet no sense of thirst could be felt. How it feels like, when a stranger just smile and show a gesture of appreciation when you assisted to open the door for that random entity.

P.S Handling a Senile old man is the worst person you can handle. I am not talking about taking care or family members.

A difference can be felt. Same body with a different soul. Every inch of source of my daily reminder of what I really am or at least use to be, disappeared.

Where is my heart. Why can't I find any motivation in this. My thoughts, my everything, where have it gone to. Please someone enlighten me, why can't i feel real anymore.

What have I done to myself. This isn't how it suppose to be. God have not forsake me, no one have forsake me, I have forsaken myself. Does it make sense?

Save me from me. Show me one more time. Whats it like to be me. I lost myself way to many times. I forget how to be me.

Can I just hide in the corner? Not coming out. When I am finally gone, No one will ever realise I was here in the first place. When I come back, now one will ever know.

Am i turning weak? Weak hearted? Have I given up from this world's never ending hatred. Have I given up from disease called human?

Change the world? Help others? Truth be told, I cant help myself. Why am I feeling weak?

Aniways, yesterday went out with din and the gang to sentosa. Damn, it was a blast. Singing short songs, playing games, have a swim in the ocean..wahaha..step ocean.. go bury nisa in the sand and make an ultraman warrior with sand..well..it was great...to bad nt everyone can be there...o well...den went to seol garden...ahah..to eat...by then our strengt increase by one as izzat join us after work...wooo..eat n eat...well aniwaes...

Well aniways, here's a very corny story that many might have heard but im gona tell it anyways

There was once a peacock, who thinks to highly of itself.. delusional, self centered and dishonest to make it be number 1. It will show it's beautifull feather to everyone, as if it's an angel. When it get injured, it will delibaratly exagarate every single fact of it, even when it was'nt injured,just to be pitied and loved. One day, the peacock saw a lake whose beauty is amazing. However, it is most interestend in the water that reflect's itself, it was so obsess with itself that it felt in the water and drowned. Drowned with it's real sorrow. Drowned with its delusional. It who clings to everyone so much and cannot live on its own. The peacock was saved, however it tell everyone of how the lake was cursed and dammed despite it's own action that cause it's own tragedy. The peacock have not learn anything from its tragedy.

What's the motive of this story, does it even have an end? does it even have a meaning? Well, sometimes, a story have no end, yet have a meaning, a lesson is not learn at the end of the class but infact the journey of the end of class. well so wats the lesson of this story? go figure it out...watcha gona do? sue me?

O yea, someone tinks im a hate tagger..wahahahahah

Recently I heard there's a tag in you know who's blog. Much appreciate for sharing the thoughts but then again, please let her be. She does not know much of what we know. Let's just say, the world don't revolve around anybody, especially you know how. One who feel that way, deserve a kick in the face, atleast for some, while others, let them try to find happiness living in denial and lies. Either way, it doesn't matter to me, all i know, a huge burden have left my shoulder, no more trouble mind, no more shit for me, no more liars to be heard, no self centered being to protect. Above all, I would like to give my greatest and most humble apology for whom may feel abandoned or ignored due to avoidance of fights, not saying there is no fight at all. Some people are best left for nature to take it's cause, as for me my friends, brethren, know that my life have been bright and my heart is once more clear from chains wraped around this untainted weight that drain my every being, mind and heart down n down.

Someone told me, I am in my glory peak and I will fall one day, and there will be no glory peak anymore for me. For that, I laughed, what a joke. Life's a joke isn't it? If this was my glory peak, then I more sadder from the person who come out with this theory. Hopping, praying and begging that this is my glory peak, won't change any fact. I will fall one day but the day won't be today. My glory peak is way back, back, back together with my best friend, good friends, and yes we fell hard, however, we never fail to climb up back. So I am sorry, facts remain, you know best, but then again, you can always lie to yourself and everyone around you. This is not the first time either, you are use to it.

Anyways, back to my life...hmm..right now, Din is sleeping and I cant seem to sleep yet, so im blogging...i guess.. blogging is cool! everyone's doing it!Well aniways, we are having this slumber party, we talk on the phone, read teen magazines, gossiping and talking about cute guys that show up on the TV.
So just now went to karaoke,karaoke? Me? What a joke, someone whose tone is no differ then a broken clock, it never goes up, it never goes down, stagnant. That explain's me not singing at all...o well..mayb, just mayb, perhaps im not saying i would, by chance, by any way, by fate, mayb, im just saying mayb, im not it will happen, sing the next time, which i still doubt so.
Sentosa later? Im treating lucnh? anybody? o well..ahah..cheers...wat u gona do? sue me?

Life have been great. I have beautiful friends. They never stop being there for me. All of you. I thank you all for everything.

Just a thought

We are but flesh and bone
No different then the rest
Our soul is still on loan
This never ending test

Knowledge is power
Knowledge is curse
Knowing the truth
Knowing to much

Truth be told
We don't need any more philosopher and scientist
We don't need any more peace talk that leads to war
We don't need any more war for the sake of peace
We don't need any more hippies in this world

Those who throw beautiful words of love and peace, in the end ruin the world
Hippies sprout out love and peace, what really happen is casual sex and drugs
Things we can do without
Things that was abolish long time ago.
Things that is killing this world
Things that stain our heart

Who is to blame for this
Who is to blame for humanity's sins
Truth be told
The person to be blame, is the same person who you see in the mirror
We who watch and do nothing, as the strong rage thoughts of selfish needs

Im using my old skin.. Will update when i can or cannot